Introduction

Hi! So, I've decided I need to blog on the journey of mental and spiritual growth.

Here's where we'll start: I'm 37 year old white girl. I have never been married, although I always feel very compelled to follow that up with the qualifier that I have had two marriage proposals. I used to be proud of that, that I had men desire me enough to propose. Now I just see it as my own inability to break off relationships when I know I do not feel satisfied in them. So, saying "No," is one of the psychological things I need to work on.

We're going to see how this blog goes. I might regret making this public. But for now, I feel like I have things that happy on a daily basis that to me are mini "wins" in my psychological growth. I think that a healthier mental outlook contributes to a better platform for our higher selves to work out of. My goal is to give myself a good bedrock of emotional capabilities to operate from. I'll get into this more as we go. I just know that I have things that happen each day that to me are AMAZING; but when I try sharing them with another person, they don't seem to understand why. For example, saying no to a co-worker's request to eat her treat that she brought in to work was a huge win for me! I didn't want to eat it, and I as gracefully and politely as possible told her no thank you. And she didn't push it. HUGE!

So, my point is, this is going to be a pretty boring blog. Luckily, no one has to read it. It can exist in cyber space, and if anyone does benefit, I will be so glad. But for now, it just allows me to express my joy and pain in a non-invasive format. I hope you enjoy reading it. I will talk with you soon.